Short Stories From 10 Years Ago – August 14, 2004
Looking For The Positive
Short Stories From 10 Years Ago – August 14, 2004 – Somewhere in the midst of the negative things that have occurred in my life in July and August rests a message or an opportunity. I’m simply not seeing it yet. Well, to be honest, I haven’t been looking for it – I’ve been too busy spewing vitriol to the four winds and whining at every turn. Not a pretty site.
I had planned to start my August e-mail newsletter this morning, but repeated error messages on my Internet Explorer made that impossible. Two hours on the phone with Sympatico Technical support didn’t clear up the problem, which apparently rests somewhere within the installation of Microsoft Windows. With the exception of my word processing program, I’m still without a computer and my E-mail, internet connection and real estate programs are kaput.
I started to clean out my office yesterday – its once a year purging. So in lieu of accomplishing any computer work today, I resumed this task right after breakfast. I’m just finishing as the clock in my office slips past eight-thirty in the evening. With a few breaks to catch bits of the Olympics, I’ve stuck with it all day. Three garbage bags filled with old papers, outdated files folders and an accumulation of useless brochures, dated business cards, old articles, pencil stubs and out-of-date magazines await the garbage and re-cycling men. It always feels wonderful to get rid of clutter and re-organize my business and personal files.
It’s now ten o’clock and I’m listening to CHFI’s Saturday night Golden Oldies – bopping to The Supremes, Percy Sledge, The Beach Boys, Edward Bear, The Beatles, The Cascades, The Stones, Smokey Robinson and The Miracles among others – and thinking about how I can shed this heavy cloak of counter-productive thinking that is draped over my psyche. Its folds are thick and heavy and I’m being pulled under by its weight
I glanced over and looked at the Inukshuk sitting on my desk. It makes me smile – this pile of stones stacked together to form the image of a human. I am so blessed – I’m ashamed of this vile wallowing. My friend – Big is right – this is an incredible inconvenience, but I need to let go of the anger and spiteful feelings I’ve been harbouring for the last few weeks.
Looking on the bright side of things – if my computer system had to crash – better now in the dog days of summer when my schedule isn’t hectic, than during the fall market when I’m very busy. I have time now to get re-organized and to do some planning for the last months of the year. I wanted to see a message here and this is it – “Enough”.
Time to lighten up – time to forgive and forget – time to put away these childish thoughts of revenge and mayhem and get on with life. Letting go of unhappy experiences isn’t easy, but it’s an essential undertaking, and one that allows positive feelings to bubble to the surface and slough off the dull stickiness of negative energy. This productive day has chased away some of the dragons.